Author Archive: mordewis

Running Out of Time

I’ve had it good financially since my accident in April. Not so good as to own shares in Lockheed or anything of the sort, but I’m almost out of debt and on track for the rest. But I haven’t been able to find work, and am even more limited in what I can do as a result of (a) the accident (diminishing my prospects as a driver) and (b) the injuries resultant from the accident (diminshing my physical abilities). There is also the age factor.

I’ve been trying to find work in PC repair and installation, especially software installation. No nibbles. I’m sure I could make a go of it on my own if I had any money to weather the startup, but I don’t. And the Covid money is gone in a month, reducing my income by over $500/week, so things get really desparate then.

The shoulder is bad enough that it hurts some to play guitar. I was blessed with Lee Billings’s Alvarez, which is only a half-depth body, and that helps, although of course the sound is not the same. But I’m not playing much. I have had two people suggest I put out another CD; my response is, I sold maybe 4 dozen copies of the first one, including to those who funded the production of it.

If anyone knows of any way for me to make real money, please let me know. I can’t scam or steal, and I can’t do heavy work or, for that matter, do anything which requires much standing or lifting. Computers is where my heart is, and there is more money there if I can find a job. But I’ll listen to anything. I do get a few gifts from my podcast audience, but hardly enough to call income.

Hugs,

Me

Festival Complete

I really did pretty well opening up the Festival of the Living Rooms 2. Sadly, the recording quality of Zoom leaves much to be desired. I was supposed to supply KJ with a copy of “A Flower and A Hufflepuff”, but it just doesn’t sound that good. I’m trying to remember to do it during the day, just recording it on Audacity.

The weekend was hectic enough, with team meeting and podcast and further potential filking time, that I forgot to turn in my unemployment update. I then had to wait until Wednesday to do it, which I did first thing, but still haven’t gotten my check.

My shoulder is about 80% now. It felt a lot better this morning than it does tonight, but the amount of movement has definitely improved.

Guess that’s about it for now.

Hugs,

Me

Opening Festival of the Living Rooms 2

This Friday I will be the opening act for an all-weekend music festival called Festival of the Living Rooms 2. I will be performing at 5 pm Eastern time. You can probably find links to it by searching Facebook for Festival of the Living Rooms. They offered me an hour, but my shoulder still hurts too much from my auto accident on April 15. It hurts to put my right arm over the guitar, although the pain gets less each day and the flexibility increases a slight amount.

Ouch

On April 15th, while driving for O’Reilly Auto Parts, I got in an auto accident. It was bad. It was really bad. It was NASCAR bad. But, like most NASCAR wrecks, I climbed out of the vehicle almost unaided. I did go to the ER and had lots of pictures taken. Nothing broken, but everything hurt. I had some follow up care. Right now, I don’t have full use of my right shoulder, and by extension my right arm isn’t working all that well. Hard to even wash my hair. Hard to type without hurting a little. And I can’t play guitar, as that strains the shoulder.

But I’m all right. Looking at the video of the accident, I should be a lot worse, maybe not alive at all, but I’m all right. I missed an opportunity to perform, shoulder hurts. Whoopee. I lost my job, but they separated based on the current COVID-19 crisis, did not reference the accident at all. I’ve learned that my unemployment check will be $141 per week, which is not much at all. But we did get our stimulus checks, or rather they should clear the bank today. I got a good tax refund. I should be able to stretch things out to 2 months without work.

Now maybe I can find a GOOD job. Hoping to get something in computer repair or software installation.

I’m OK. Really.

Hugs,
Me

Postmates Bust

So I’m trying to find something I can do which will pay better than what pennies I’m making at O’Reilly. I’m getting an almost-decent hourly rate but not enough hours. So the first thing to try is another delivery service. I checked around, and nationally Postmates makes better money per hour that Uber Eats, GrubHub, etc. So I sign up for it.

I got my packet. They told me to get my debit card set up. They didn’t tell me what it was for. So I go out my first day without it, and the first call I get requires me to use the card to pay for the order. Oh, so THAT’s what it’s for. As I live about 45 minutes away from the site I was picking food up at, I had to cancel the order. So at this point, I figure I have to pay for every order with the card, don’t have the card, so I have to go home. This also means I don’t really have time to go back out, so it waits until the next day. This is a Monday.  It does turn out that my assumption was not true, that there are many orders I could pick up which are pre-paid.

I go out Tuesday. OK, Postmates said their best days were Friday, Saturday and Sunday, but I didn’t have those days off. So I’m out on a Tuesday. I’m out for 9 hours, got 4 calls. This is especially frustrating in that they keep pushing at me that if I go on 40 calls in my first 10 days, they will round whatever I make up (not including my tips) to $350. Well, I’m only 10% of the way there, have gone out two days, and have 6 of the next 9 days unavailable due to my other job.

I go out Wednestday. A bit better, 8 calls. Still not even a third of the way toward the 40 calls. I’m getting decent tips, both in terms of how many people tip me (well over 50%) and about half the tips are $5+.

Now I have to work Thursday, Friday and Saturday at O’Reilly’s, have Sunday off, and then work Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday.

I’m not 26 years old anymore. I can’t put in 12 hour days or 7 day weeks. But I have to try for that 40 trips. So I’m out today, Sunday. I’ve been out since before 11 am, and it’s now after 4 pm, and I’ve had 5 more trips. Not 15. Five. And I can’t work again until Thursday, and my time runs out on the 40-trip promotion on Friday at 6:15 pm.

I’m a bit bummed. I’m not making enough money to quit working at O’Reilly no matter how many days I go out. I’m not getting close to the same hourly rate even with the good tips.

I hope you can see how this doesn’t look like it’s going to work out. Maybe it’s the wrong time of year. Maybe it would do better in Spring or Summer or… But waaah.  We’re paying our bills but having to not get many things we need. So far we have enough food.

Looking for another idea.

Oh, and I went to a place offering food last night, supposed to start at 6 pm. I found out it was a holy roller revival service, and if you lived through the over 2 hours of service you would get food. It triggered my autism with the crowds and noise, and I didn’t want to leave my wife at home (not feeling well for weeks). I’d already been out 9 hours for work at O’Reilly’s. I left feeling kinda bummed on that, although a guy came out of the church to ask if I was all right, heard that I was not, and said I could come by “tomorrow” (now today) and get food if there was any left. Considering it is about a 50 minute drive from anywhere, I don’t think I’m going.

I typed this all while not getting Postmates calls, it’s now about 4:30 pm. Most people don’t order food in the early afternoon.

Hugs,
Me

Visit to the Aliens

I get to visit the aliens for a probing tomorrow. They operate out of a facility within the University of Tennessee Medical Center. I’m supposed to do this every 10 years, and I’m overdue, although I’ve heard some people say their doctors tell them every three years. I’m getting a bit dizzy right now due to a lack of solid food. The fun starts tonight when I have to start drinking the solution. And then my wife will need to drive me home from the probe, during Knoxville rush hour trafficf.

I checked my paycheck. O’Reilly’s was nice enough to drop an extra $50 on me. The listing said “HOL GIFT”.

Better stop typing now. Dizziness often reveals itself in less than balance…

I hope everyone is having a good holiday season. Good health to all.

Huge hippo hugs,
Me

Uptick

My boss finally heard me say that I needed 4 days of work per week. He scheduled me Mon-Thu this coming week. Hope it continues. We’re about as low as we can go and still keep our bills paid, although we are dropping more into debt on the gas card.

I have now been a real podcaster for over a year, started last October. I even started my own podcast back in April, and the reception has been better than expected although not exactly overwhelming– we have yet to get close to 500 downloads, but that’s still 400 more than we thought we would get when we started. It’s just me and my friend Tony Hughes in England, rambling on about different distros of Linux, so of course it’s a niche of a niche of a niche market; our other podcast is averaging over 3,300 downloads.

Just keeping up day to day stuff, and getting ready for my annual trip to Atlanta in January. I’m serious considering taking only one guitar and the harp, although I’ll probably take two.

My birthday is Wednesday. I’ll be nearly twice as old as I ever thought I’d be. Yeah, my family generally is long-lived but I’ve been the exception to everything, the idiot sheep that everyone gave up on and let him roam off. I think Suzanne and I will go to Maryville next Saturday to hear an Americana singer-songwriter who runs the MeWe songwriting group I’m in, would be good to get out for a change. Hope I don’t go all autistic on the crowd size, but maybe it won’t be too bad.

I’m starting to think that I have multiple emotional states/ages. Not personalities… things trigger me to how I would react(badly) at a certain age. I can be trying to have a conversation over a few other tasks I’m doing, and then one more question will trigger me and I start screaming. I don’t engage in name-calling but I do scream or yell. I don’t know how Suzanne handles it, and somewtimes she doesn’t, but she understands it as it is demonstrably consistent. I don’t know how to manage it, although I’m going to ask someone I trust if he can help me. This is a new thing, just the past 3 years, maybe something about Suzanne is triggering me; I don’t remember having this issue in ast relationships. Forget you ever read this, it is too personal.

Well, my coffee is ready, I’ve had my shower, and it’s only a few hours until the podcast. I am so very grateful for my listeneres, they have been gifting me with cool computer stuff and even a little money, and it always helps to know you’re doing something which someone out there appreciates. I have set up a place online where people can become patrons of my podcasting work, although nobody has yet joined; thought it was worth it to give them options.

Great Blizzard of 2019

We just had our first snowfall of the season. Got maybe 1-2″ all over the cars and porch… didn’t stick in road areas so much. We did drive to Rutledge and turn in some paperwork. Very little traffic on the road.

And to top it off, here is a shot of our new kitten, rescued from a life as a frozen feral cat. His name is Gremlin.

Same title as before

I’m getting lots of job offers from phony compnaies, and the only actual job offers I’m getting are from companies which did not bother to read my resume (i.e., sales organizations and call centers).

I’ve received yet another Raspberry Pi, this one a 3B from my friend Tony Hughes in England. That is the 3rd Pi I’ve received, and still have these last two, the other being a 2B+. I am getting a lot of love from my listeners, for which I am quite grateful.

I’m reviewing Zorin OS this month. I’m finding it to not be as advertised — it is supposed to be a Linux version of Windows, but instead it’s a Windows-like re-theming of Gnome. There are so many differences between Gnome 3 Desktop and Windows Desktop, mostly in that a lot of things work differently and there are a lot more things hidden in the interface.

I started my 7-day every-two-week vacation. I should be grateful, but I’ve asked for more hours and my manager seems unwilling to even consider the possibility. Today we did a bit of shopping, it was drippy. We each called our surviving parent. We watched  lot of TV. We got no calls for jobs.

I got a nice comment on the Jupiter Broadcasting Telegram group, that my opinion could have been valuable on a just-recorded show. Distrohoppers’ Digest Episode 007 is already over 300 downloads, in about a week of being available. There really are good things happening, but in true Moss fashion, none of them appear to head toward me being able to support myself and my wife any better. I hope I’m wrong about that.

All my titles are the same

Mom is out of the hospital again and in Southland Rehab. She may go home, we don’t know.

I have a job interview today, and, from the look of things on the website, it may be lower pay and worse conditions than what I have now. What fun.

I installed Ubuntu Budgie on my former Ubuntu MATE partition, and don’t get boot at all, except I can get there with Esc > exit, which brings up the Linux Mint Grub Customizer boot menu and that works.

Our new kitten had his mother visit us. She sat out on the driveway and glared at the house for about an hour. I guess she missed Gremlin, but he’s ours now. Cecil and Narasimha don’t like the new addition, and have not been nice to him yet.

I sent out an email to all active members of Triad Bardic College. Hope it gets response. I need to get out from under my difficulties and get to work on TBC. Also my music.

We’ll be recording (Tony and me) Distrohoppers’ Digest on Wednesday morning. Yay!

Lots of stuff going on. I’m loving my two “new” laptops. I’m having issues dealing with UEFI that I hadn’t dealt with before using Legacy Boot, but I’ll learn.

Sometimes I just get so upset with myself. People try to explain things to me and I just can’t understand it. Although usually there are 3 or 4 people trying to explain it to me at the same time, and I just get confused, even when I fgure out what to try it seems I’m not smart enough to figure it out. Sometimes someone just has to give me line by line instructions. And even then I don’t know what I’m doing, but I can at least describe it to them when it doesn’t work.

And someone is always telling me what I should do. I’m barely coping with life now, but I should add 30 hours of class and study to my life. I just don’t have the energy.

End of whine.