Monthly Archive: August 2014

Home Again

I had a wonderful weekend. Visited with John Noggle yesterday, did not get to go to lunch as planned before needing to leave. Nan was ill so I couldn’t take her to St. Matthews with me for the Housefilk. Got there just fine, had a wonderful time, slept fairly well on a nice bed, left this morning to go back to Asheville. I visited with Sky for an hour or so, and cancelled on John because he wanted to take me out to eat and I was still full from last night. Came home. Didn’t spend too much on gas, considering, and had a wonderful time. My landlord installed a new air conditioner for my bedroom over the weekend; looks kinda small and not so much energy efficient, but the smallness might mean fewer BTUs anyhow. As long as I can sleep.

Weekend Trip

On my way to St. Matthews, SC for the night, with stops in Asheville and Hendersonville (I hope). A filk party at the home of Larry Kirby. Will be lots of fun. Might or might not get to take Nan with me, depending on her health. I’ll get a short visit with John Noggle in Asheville and some lunch. Don’t think I have time to drop by Sky St, Martha but maybe on the return trip. Anyone else? Call me.


I just heard that the performance I am to give in a few weeks in Dillsboro, NC was under-promoted, so there will likely only be a few people there. I’ll go anyhow, I love to play places.

I have a housefilk to attend this Saturday at Larry Kirby’s house in St. Matthews, SC. I will be taking Nan with me, picking her up on the way. If all goes well, she will also spend next week at my apartment.

Everything is going smoothly for Atomacon in Charleston, SC. I will have a lot of fun there. ¬†And I hope to find the money soon to go to GAFilk in January, have offered to pay a fair amount on the hotel room this year. I do this just for fun, nobody pays me to go and I don’t get any special concert other than the Twofer. If you’re a filker, missing GAFilk is a mistake.

Work is going fine, and I am certain my help is appreciated by my coworkers, manager, and the guys we support. I have learned that SocSec intends to cut off my SSDI in a couple years if I keep the job (or have another one) until the end of my “3 Year Extended Trial Work Period”, leaving me just short by 3 years or so from getting SocSec Retirement. I think I have things in line to where I can work enough hours to replace most of the lost income and not need the rest of it. Who knows what will happen by then?



Not Doing So Well

I’ve been melting down, or nearly so, for the past couple weeks. Everything is going well, but it’s not. I’m not letting myself be affected by stress, but I am. Apparently I am doing a good job of isolating stress from what I’m doing, and a poor job of dumping the stress or destressing so it’s building up.

The past couple days at work I have been nearly useless. The guys have not been doing well at all. There is still a lot of turmoil, getting staff in to cover slots instead of getting back to some kind of normal, and that always distresses the guys. But it’s getting to me, instead of my usual way of letting it flow over me.

The stresses have been: Death of car, dealing with my mother to get me home and then replace car, performance itself (although mitigated by how well I did), all the stuff going on at work (manager’s death, loss of staff, reaction of guys), the extra hours I worked to make up my missed time, information on my disability (which might end in 2 years, the way I read the law — and they don’t say explicitly anywhere what happens at the end of what they are now calling the “3-year extended trial work period”). And then the death of Robin Williams. That especially hit me because of all the potential suicides I’ve stopped, and the knowledge that he had stopped a few himself.

So how do I destress? I have people I can tell the problems to, but it doesn’t go away. I have nobody I can hold. Meditation has never worked for me, although I give it another try every few weeks/months/years.

OK, there is your 5 minutes of angst. Nothing to see here. Move along.



I ordered 2 Gb of RAM (memory chips) on Tuesday from “parts-quick” on Amazon. I got the memory today, and my computer is back up to the 4Gb I like it to have (when I get more money I might increase it to 6 or 8).

The price was good and the shipping was blazingly fast. I have to recommend this merchant.

I have other favorite merchants — “soul_niche” at eBay has the best dhoop incense, for instance — but have resisted plugging for them. Should I start doing that? It definitely gives me something positive to blog about…



With my mother’s help, I have a new vehicle. It’s a 2006 Chevy Cobalt with 88,500 miles on it. Paid $5990 plus tax and license. So I got back to work Thursday.

Then I worked day shift AND my regular shift Friday. Day shift Sunday. Extra hours Monday. And more hours Tuesday including working by myself all shift, which should not happen, with the promise of Wednesday off to rest. A lot of this is because my manager’s mother passed away, and he needed more time away to deal with it, as is fully understandable, so I pulled my weight as a member of the team. But I’ve worked at least 42 hours this past 7 days, maybe 45, and I have been feeling overworked at my normal 25.

So then my manager got back today, and asked me to work. I had to tell him no. Instead, I went to take a computer desk back to an ex (had to disassemble it, and reassemble it at her apartment), pick up my computer (which died last Wednesday night, seems to have been a memory chip going bad), and then spend a few hours getting my checkbook spreadsheet caught up. (I haven’t worked on it since I left for Confluence, when I found that their mobile app lets me view, but not edit, my spreadsheets.)

I think I’m caught up. I had some money left over and put it in savings just in case my paycheck is shorter than expected (this next paycheck includes 4 days off out of my usual 10, again for Confluence and the car trouble). I needed $50 of that savings to balance a payment due to be taken out tomorrow. But I think I’m on track again. And ZohoDocs tells me that they are working very hard on their mobile apps so that this does not happen again.

I have been very lucky. I have had things to do, friends to do them with, and the help I needed when things broke down. I now have to spend the next 18-24 months getting on top of things so that I won’t need to ask for help when the next crisis occurs.