I was so happy that my honey got out of the crisis center this morning. Even though I barely had any sleep, it was good to have her home cuddling with me.
That was the high point of the day. I thought we were doing pretty well, but she was obviously feeling more stressed.
I was hoping that she would stay the night. After all, she lives here… and had not been home 5 of the previous 6 nights (3 at the crisis center, 2 at a friend’s house). But then she started packing to go back to the friend’s house, and I started crying.
At the end of it, I decided it was time to stop holding onto the relationship, and suggested we should break up. I love her with all my heart, and I know she loves me the same, but we have not been able to fix the problems we’ve had, and we’ve been working at it for 9 months. If she is so stressed she would rather sleep on a friend’s couch than stay home with me, then we have problems. We have been trying to find her an apartment for some time so that we could work out those problems. No luck yet.
I know it is going to be hard for her to try to keep going without me, but it has been hard for her to try to keep going with me, and the same could be said about me. I hope we can figure stuff out. I’m not holding my breath but I’d love to be holding my honey.
No new job prospects. Honey’s only job prospect calls for an interview on Dec 7. Not much to look forward to. Hope she gets it and can keep it, but they sure are being slow about it.
OK, don’t know what else to say. I’m hurting, she’s hurting, we both could use your prayers.
My mother has been moved from the hospital to a rehab facility for physical therapy. They say they will let her out for a few hours, I expect she will go home and then go back to the facility. I hope she can just go home soon.
Hugs,
Me