And the week rolls to a close. It has been a long time since I had such a comfortable time with a woman… and felt so helpless. I drive Nan back home. She has had more backrubs this week than any week in recent memory. I know they *helped* but they didn’t fix anything or show a path forward. I hate it when I can’t really help… but I got a chance to show love, and not much chance to show the lust which properly goes with a good relationship. It’s really hard to get into lovemaking when you feel the tiny flinch that goes with each light touch. And this is a woman I really love and really would want to be with. Almost happened once.

I told my mother when I first broke up with Nan that I would be with her again in 2 years. I missed the deadline, but if I could heal the pain she is going though I would be there in seconds. Assuming I could get another driver and had enough gas money to get to H’ville and back with a Uhaul and my van…

In other news, I was part of a test group trying to help write a document to use multiple virtual machines on Lighthouse 64 Mariner or FatDog 64. I think I helped make the document more usable, especially for newbies like me, but I never really finished getting it set up (maybe if I read the finished document I can do that).

I just tasted the first beer out of my latest batch. This is a “Grand Bohemian Pilsner” — ya know, it’s supposed to taste like Buttweiper or Molar (names changed to protect the rich people) … and if their product tasted like THIS I wouldn’t bother buying homebrewing kits. Still, I like more of a Belgian product, so I’ll be buying more of that when I get enough money.

OK, time to get ready for the long drive to WNC and back.

Hugs,
Me