OK, the melody line works now, I’ve come up with some good ideas for it.
I can’t tell you how loved and cherished it makes me feel to hear Aimee go to sleep with me on the phone. Just listening to her breathe tells me how safe she feels with me. I wish my arms were around her. I know she wasn’t sleeping well until she started spending the night with me on the phone. It was such a special feeling that I wrote one of my best songs ever about it (see previous posts, “Sleeping With Aimee”).
I need to be with her, even if I have to move to Arkansas to do it; that will be hard, since I have so many friends and activities and responsibilities here… but I’ve always said it would take an Act of Goddess to get me to leave Asheville, and if Aimee can’t come here, I don’t see that I have any other choice. I’m trying to talk myself into buying a bus ticket to visit her soon, I don’t know how long I can live without her.
I need to mention something. We had a very tearful discussion last night, mostly about how much we miss each other and how important we are to each other… and how much I need her here right now. I was pushing the issue way too hard… and she was probably feeling almost attacked. But in the middle of it, she stopped and reminded me that I hadn’t meditated yet, and needed to do that right away because my time-frame was expiring. (Read my website for information on my meditation regime.) It just hit me so hard, that while we were crying and feeling tugged both ways, she could find the love and concern in her heart to take care of me. I only hope that some day I can learn how to do that. It just made me love her so much more than ever.