I’m finding that things I always used to say or do just for fun, almost automatically, now cause me to start trembling or even crying. I tense up. I’m sure I did something wrong. I think I’m coming to understand how women feel who find themselves in a relationship with a controlling person and how they just deal with it until they are so very damaged… like me.
I do have one friend trying to talk me through this. Totally out of the blue.