Ever been with someone who wants to undress your MIND and make love to it? My lovely Jevim (Buffy) wants to do that… and repeat the act with my soul, spirit… and, yes, body. I have never had a woman I respected so much, valued so highly, loved so very deeply, and wanted to FUCK so much — and who felt exactly the same way about me. What’s the problem? I’ve never had it, and don’t have a clue how to integrate it. But such travails are sweet, and I’ll get the hang of it.
Let me rephrase that…
I have never had a woman I loved so deeply. I have never had a woman I respected more, and few as much. I have had few women who even LIKED me, other than what they could get out of me or turn me into in their minds. Having the love and respect and acceptance is more than I could ask for. And to have the same feelings returned to me, over and over, with the most love ever…
And then there is the sheer physical desire, which is on such a sacred level it is blowing me away. We do everything from Holy to Dirty and it is done always with that love and respect, not just a “hot fuck”. That by itself is something I have never known and would give a lot to have.
Now I have it all. And I never DREAMED I could, and don’t know how to integrate it. But I’m working on it.