Realization

I figured out why I am so scared in this relationship, so fragile in the evenings (two different insights).

First, this relationship offers me EVERYTHING I ever wanted — a beautiful, intelligent, sensual High Priestess who is attracted to me and trusts me, a beautiful little girl who also trusts and loves me, a house that feels like Home, and all the loving animals who inhabit and surround the place, as well as mostly clearly-defined duties and ways I can make them feel spoiled while not (often) stretching beyond my capabilities. THE WORLD WOULD END IF I LOST THIS. That’s only slightly more dramatic than it actually is.

And I’ve been taking my responsibilities so seriously that I am not getting as much sleep as others in the household. I never was good for much at night when sleepy — either cranky or whiny, leaning toward the latter.

So I told my love of this, and will try to dial down the urgency and just live the life. 

I AM SO GRATEFUL FOR MY FAMILY AND THE GODDESS WHO SHOVED ME AT THEM.

 

Hugs,

Me

Comment (1)

  1. mordewis

    Yesterday, my sweet Jevim told me, “I can’t imagine my life without you, sweetheart.” Boy. That did a lot to help and heal.

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