Monthly Archive: August 2013

Quietly Busy

Having an interesting weekend alone. My lady and our other housemate are off at the women’s gathering, and my baby girl is spending the weekend at her aunt’s. I’m getting lots done, although there are still things on my list. I have not gotten my monthly paycheck yet, and my biweekly one comes Thursday, so I don’t have any money; I don’t have the car so, other than walking, there is nowhere to go. I’ve had a couple friends offer to visit, and then cancelled. I have not done any music yet but might tonight. A few college football games to watch, none of them have captured my attention yet. So I’m mostly just taking care of the house and animals. I got a lot of laundry done yesterday, vacuumed and some cleaning today (still have some to do), and got the stuff printed to (a) run my workshop at Harvest and (b) make some bread. I’ve even got the flour mix put together, something I should have done months ago. Hard to feel accomplished; harder not to.

I just learned my friend Cat Faber has been nominated for a Pegasus Award for Best Composer. My best wishes go out to her.

Still no news on when or whether I can get my CD printed. I’m thinking about just offering it on but I’m a little intimidated by the site.

I did get a few more beads for my sweetie. Can’t pay for them until my paycheck comes in, but the prices were too good to leave on the table.



Had an issue at work yesterday but handled it well. Hurting pretty badly today but gotta do what I gotta do. Honey is going to a women’s retreat for the weekend, leaving tomorrow; have to find a way to a doctor appointment. I’m talking to my supervisor about shifting days around if needed, and am going to try to get by on a bus pass, should cut a lot of money from the gasoline budget. Gotta get by, gotta provide for my honey and our daughter.

Today it has been 6 months since I moved in with Honey. Not the easiest of my life, but lots of rewards and I’m happy to be moving forward. Challenges abound, and my issues are at least half of them.


Piling On Again

Looks as if we had another log or two thrown on the expense and stress pile. I came up with one idea to take a log off, and Honey is getting another taken off. We should be OK. She is panicking about a health issue that I really can’t help with any more than I have. But we’re sticking together and sticking it out. I need to do more in educating our daughter, and need to step up there… I’ve only been a parent (of this 8 year old) for 6 months, I think things are going well.


Must Be Unique

I have an easy job, one I could do with almost no effort. I tell people about this job. They look at me like I’m an alien and tell me they couldn’t do it, or tell me they don’t have the qualifications (mostly a good heart and a good driving record with a valid drivers license).

i go to a guy’s house. I sit with him and talk to him. Yes, he says the same thing over an over, but it’s all he knows and he needs someone to talk to him. I sometimes help with making dinner, I make sure he gets his medications at the end of my shift. What else I do is up to me — many of the employees just sit and watch TV when not doing something essential, some get very creative, and one actually does her homework towards a degree in nursing.

The job pays better than McDonalds (almost $2 an hour better), for very little stress and work. You just have to know what to do when something happens, and know to do the essential things. You can even get your guy to help you with them if s/he can.

The company I work for can’t find enough workers. Yes, it’s a very long application, that’s part of the screening process. Yes, they do drug testing and background checks. But they also offer full health coverage (after 6 months) for full time employees and other good benefits. They also offer 3 weeks of paid training, and continuing trainings throughout your employment (also paid).

Am I that weird? Why are there so many unemployed people but so many of this kind of job — helping people — open?

My company operates in 11 NC markets, 4 TN markets, and are looking to open an office in GA. If you live in those areas, need a job, and can do this stuff, feel free to contact me.

Selling In

…not out. I sold a book this morning on Amazon. We had taken it to McKay’s a week or so back and they tried to give me 25c for it and mark it for sale at 50c. I sold it for $40.00. My honey also sold one for about $10. Yes, there are Amazon fees. I have a few books at and a bunch at Amazon.

But more so, I have my own store for spiritual jewellery, specifically malas (meditation necklaces) but also other items. is the site.

We need help keeping my family going. Anything you can do is appreciated, and that’s why we are making and acquiring things for sale so we are not just asking for charity.

I know that only a couple of people read this blog. Please have your friends read it… and visit the sites…


Swami Beyondananda

I was asked about the quote at the top of my page. It was said by Steve Bhaerman, a political comic who writes and performs under the name “Swami Beyondananda”. His website, for your edification, is .

Other comments (available as refrigerator magnets) include:

The best way to illuminate the darkness is to make light of it.

Each of us is totally unique — just like everyone else.

The Creator is watching the Comedy Channel and we are what’s on.

Living in the now will be the wave of the future.

Why don’t we go for “Heaven on Earth” just for the hell of it?

I have expanded my mind so much I can no longer fit through my door … I had to go to a shrink.

Life is a sitcom — so sit calm and enjoy it.

The sky is not falling — we are ascending.

I cannot stress enough how stressful stress can be.

New Site

Now that Xanga is abandoning its users, I have decided to begin anew.

II have been letting life be felt as tearing me apart, when it’s just a slight amount of damage. I guess when you decide to be more multifaceted, light comes through those extra facets. I hope I can deal with this, and I hope those who love me can hold on for the ride. But I have to make decisions now to put a cow-catcher out front and maybe a snowplow, to smooth the road a bit. Maybe I just need better shock absorbers.

Today I shed a skin. I’m sure it won’t be a complete shed, but I will do the best I can.