Yearly Archive: 2013

Second Day of Con Report

This is going to be posted backwards, as it is easiest to remember events from the most recent back.

The “Alternate” Filk was a hit and a hoot. Got to be larger than the “Main” filk. We had Talis Kimberly. We had Dave Clement. We had Sandy. We had Amy. And of course, me, Marshall, Gary Ehrlich, Sherman Dorn, and many others. Having Sandy and Dave in the room meant I got to perform “Mary Ellen-or Rigby” for Canadians, in fact, for Canadians who were dyed-in-the-wool Stan Rogers fans.  I got to play most of what I set out to play. Came to bed with Marshall sometime around 4;30. 

 
The Banquet was not that great again food-wise but was not rubber. I actually was asked to dance by Cat Faber, who leads rather well, I’m glad to say, and the lady who asked me to dance last year did as well, so I had two dances rather than the one I had last year.
 
My TwoforTen concert had me singing “Hands of God”, which I did rather well, and “Scale”, with Cat Faber watching. Some of my friends were busy watching Cat, who was smiling and crying the whole way through, so I must have done well (note that she asked me to dance at the Banquet, which was well after this).
 
Guess that’s most of what I remember. Oh, I did have some periods of not knowing whether to be happy or cry, and talked to Sky about that. The difference between being at a con with so many friends and being at home alone is enormous. I also do not know whether I can afford to go to another con, although I am scheduling ConCarolinas at the end of May and GAFilk again next year. No way of knowing if the money for those will happen.
 
Hugs,
Me

Good Times Ahead

Yayyy some good stuff. I’m leaving either tomorrow or very early Friday to pick up a friend in Asheville and go to GAFilk in Atlanta ( http://gafilk.org ). Will be singing my guts out and wearing my fingers to the bone. Taking two guitars and my autoharp.  I already know I’ll have friends there, including at least one family of Family members.  Hugs in the forecast!

If anyone is interested in hearing my music, at least 95% of what has been recorded is sitting in a Box.com folder. Write me and give me your box.net email account address (and if you don’t have one, join — it’s free) and I’ll give you access.

Mind you, it’s not professionally recorded, although the newer stuff has pretty good (but raw) recording quality.

 

Hugs,

Me

Another slip

One of my ex-girlfriends had started talking to me, and it had begun to sound like most of our issues had been dealt with. After getting pretty far into a relationship with her emotionally, things started going south again. I had to break it off last night. My head was spinning, I was feeling attacked, I was put on the defensive, and was being told all those things didn’t matter or I misunderstood.

I don’t know who is wrong, and I don’t care. My job is to keep myself centered, not have to recover from frequent cognitive dissonances. I have to take care of myself first. If I hurt her, well, we’ve been through this before, she can tell herself she should have known better. I don’t like hurting anyone, and it seems more and more that I need to stay out of ALL relationships.  I can’t help feeling lonely though.

Blanket statement: If I’ve hurt you, I’m sorry. I’m in no shape to be in a relationship (love, emotions, sex, living together, roommates, whatever) and would appreciate it if you all would stop trying to entice me into one.

 

Hugs,

Me

Heilige Neue Jahr

By about 10 last night, I was too bloody tired and upset to keep going, so I went to bed. I woke up at about 12:23 am and felt fine. It’s amazing how a silly thing like a calendar can make me feel so different — when I went to bed, I felt like an all-year failure and alone, when I woke up I felt like I got a new start and called my girlfriend.

Got a lot of work ahead of me this year. Hope I manage it.

 

Hugs,

Me