Yearly Archive: 2015


My life seems to be so much better than I can ever remember it. It wasn’t easy getting here. One thing I have used to get here might be called “tools”, ways I change my attitude about a situation before I can actually change the situation itself.

One very important tool I’ve used is to take personal responsibility for my actions through my words, as opposed to telling someone else how to do things to get better. I may not have all the details of your situation, I may not understand all the nuances, but if it reminds me of something I came up against I’m happy to tell you how I changed my situation. If it helps, great; if not, I’m not judging you or trying to make you feel bad.

I have noticed that some people just want to feel bad and want me to join in the party. Their response to my offering this type of help is, “It’s all about you! Blah blah blah.”

Sorry, but I’m not going to go there. It is all about me in my life, and you are all about you. That’s the way it should be. I’m not responsible for fixing you and I’m not trying to do that, just hoping you find something to think about and see how you might apply it to your life.

I am not a motivational speaker, I don’t have any x-step plans, it’s your life and I respect that. Sometimes I allow myself to be hurt by the fact that some people I try to help don’t respect me and my life, but there’s nothing I can do about that either except to not accept the slam and not join their party.

Guess that’s all I have to say on that right now. Maybe I could have said it better, I’m always looking for ways to improve.


Diversionary Tactics

I’ve been given a new task, and have been spending all my non-work time working on a Facebook page and a website for Triad Bardic College… The website is Things are good and continue going well. The only thing I might complain about is actually someone else’s problem.

Happy Beltane

I just returned from a lovely weekend with my spiritual Family, belatedly celebrating Beltane in the woods at our usual site. It was incredible, and we had the best Bardic event in recent memory. I’m exhausted but happy, and have yet to unload my car. I hope you all had a blessed Beltane whenever and wherever you celebrated it.

I took a large box of books and sold nearly half of them (at bargain-basement prices), making me a decent amount of money. I also collected what was owed on an earlier sale of a netbook. Good times plus money equals happiness, LOL.



Catching Up Yet Again

I continue to work my new job. While I don’t particularly *like* the guy I’m working for, he needs the help, and so far he dislikes me considerably less than many of the other staff. It’s easier work than before, and as I’m only working 3 days per week (longer hours) it’s about the same amount of gas and I get really long weekends, so overall I’m happy with the new job. My co-workers are a good group of people, and I have options should I choose to no longer work at this house.

I’ll get back to work on fixing the car as the month comes to an end. Tires and injectors are first on the list, struts lower down. I’m really feeling good about how I handled the task and the debt.

Life is moving forward at a nice pace with good possibilities, for all of which I am thankful. If not everyone around me is thankful for their lot, I can offer help without taking responsibility, which is also a new thing for me.

The next steps are within sight. I will continue to take them.


Update on Busy Day

I got out of the Chevy Dealership at just over $1000, with a preferred customer card good for $75 on my next service. The rental car only cost $60, have to wait for them to refund my deposit to my credit card before I get that credit back but that’s all good. I went and bought two tires for the front — that was the greater need, the tire dealer only had two in stock, and I only had money for two.

All in all, a successful day. And before I went to the car dealership, I accepted a credit offer from Barclay’s which gave me a new card with a higher credit limit and lower interest rate than the Chase Amazon card, and they claim I can move the Chase balance to it for a $30 fee (with 0% interest the first year, that’s a huge savings).

I don’t know when I’ll be able to move to my new digs, but there is hope that is moving forward more swiftly than earlier thought.

Thank you, Goddess, for having things fall so neatly into place. If my job had not needed me to go to Knoxville for training and to pick up a certificate on Monday, and I was not scheduled to work until today (Wednesday), I would not have been near the dealership and would have missed work or had more trouble getting done what was needed.


Busy day

Yesterday was my first day in my new house (work). I went in at Noon and talked with my house manager. Things were going well. Then her daughter brought her lunch, and it was my old friend Brittany.

Had to go get a short training and pick up a certificate in Knoxville, which cut my day short… had to take my car in to the shop after that, too many bad noises.

Back to work tomorrow.

Just got the call from the shop, the want to bill me over $1800 plus other services (injectors, coolant, and tires). I only have $1400 available and that will max my credit back out. I’m in shock but I’ll deal with it.

Feeling Accomplished

Today, I finished all the requirements for my new job, including all the online computer classes, my CPR & First Aid License (my old one, from a different source, is still good for another year, but my old employer likes to renew annually), my PCM class, and everything else. I then went and did my laundry, for another level of accomplishment. So now it’s time to get toasted. I was told my new Coordinator would be calling but she hasn’t yet. And tomorrow (and perhaps Sunday as well), I will be off in the boonies playing music with Lady Emrys and Faucon.

Last Day

Well, today is my last day at my old job. Sorta. Barring extra shifts here and there. Monday I start training, at 9 am; that’s not going to be easy, but it’s only for a week. Then they have to figure out my schedule.

Three days this week, work has been fine. No problems. The fourth, not so good, as my guy trashed his bedroom twice (I picked it up both times) before returning to his usual, lovable self. (The behavior was triggered by his housemate, he has been sad but not upset about my leaving.)

I’ve grown quite a bit in this job, and I’m still growing, still finding bits of my constructed-to-protect-myself (by a 2-year-old kid who didn’t know better) personality or set of behaviors that needs to be reconstructed. It’s amazing I have worked out so well at this job, but I’m better for it. Now if the new job has anything like the same supports in place, I should do quite well. If not, well, RHA says they want me back. I may not be perfect, but I show up every day on time (barring car issues, which were not many), and that’s better than a lot of my co-workers can claim.

Out of the frying pan. I have no idea whether the coming terrain features fire.



Update: My day went much better than expected. Yay. Got a bottle of Tullamore Dew with which to celebrate.