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Well I believe I have met The Woman For Me, in capital letters.  She lives in southern Kentucky, and her name is Cindie.  Unlike most of the women I have been allowing myself to meet, she is older than I am, less than 3 years but older nonetheless.  She is a solitary Pagan, and lives with two of her adult children and their spouse/significant others, at least for the time being.  I just talked to her on the phone, and she sounds even better than I expected… online, we read each others’ minds to the point that it’s almost spooky; on the phone, we kinda just sat there and stared into each others’ eyes, which was strange since we couldn’t really see each other.  This shows real promise.

My ex-wife Laura and her mom sent me a really cute multi-colored hippo with a valentine’s heart for Valentine’s Day, he is sooooo cute!  She also e-mailed me pictures of her, she is getting so much thinner that she is starting to look like she did back in school.  I’m praying for you, Laura, like you asked.

Starting to get ready for Esbat, this Sunday at Luna Horsefeathers’ house.  Got to put some more holy water in the PortaPagan.  Need to send out a reminder to the coven.

Heard back from Irysa.  The poor creature still loves me… can’t blame her, I still love her.  Never had a chance of working.  We’re too different, and the age difference was the least of our problems.

Spent some time with Harry at WNCAP about doing some new things to the WNCAP website (, some of which will be easy but hard to maintain, some of which will be hard to do but no sweat to keep up.  Nothing in the middle, haha.

Well, I think my sweetie just logged back online, so I will go talk to her.  Please let me know if you’re reading this, and any comments you have.


Today was a day off for my neighbor, John, and as usual he took me out to breakfast (5:30 pm) and a movie, with drinks afterward.  We went to East Buffet, because he likes the sushi there.  It was kinda heavy for an early meal, but I can’t complain, John pays for all these outings.  I’m his only friend, and he knows that he can’t be totally solitary.

We went to see that how to lose your boyfriend in 10 days, whatever the title was.  When we got there, John tried to give the ticket taker his frequent-eater card from East Buffet instead of his ticket, they’re about the same size.  The movie was hysterical, but I gotta lose some pounds — the seat I was sitting in broke toward the end of the movie, almost dumping me on the ground.  I suppose if the movie were boring it might not have broken…

So now I’m blogging again before going online to chat with my friends.  I have a new online sweetie-prospect, an Englishwoman who lives in Myrtle Beach SC and feels totally out of place there (who wouldn’t?).  I’m looking forward to talking with someone who can write and speak the language, it’s pretty rare around here… LOL

Well, that’s about it for now.  Talk to me later!


Well, here I am in beautiful Asheville, NC… and I got an invitation to join the Kentucky Pagan Alliance!  It was from a very sweet lady, I at least have to check it out and will probably go to their Festival if I can at all.

I got my dead hard drive back from the guy who tried to restore it.  He was about 50% successful.  I got a lot of files back, but lost a lot of important ones.  I got the URI spreadsheet back though, and from that I can reconstruct all their mailing files.  Wish I could have gotten my Disk of Shadows files back…  He charged me $46, which was considerably less than the quotes I got online.  I could probably reformat the drive and use it again, but I don’t know why I should, when I’ve already ordered a new drive.

I’m trying to get over Glitter.  Whether she meant to or not, she has used me badly.  I may not see some of the things I’ve loaned her and the kids again, and I will likely never see another cent of what I loaned her.  But I have to stop being used, and have to look elsewhere for affection.

In that area, I have been talking to Amanda.  The main problem with Amanda is that she lives in Alabama.  I am not going to make the mistake of moving there again, and she has bad memories of an ex here in WNC.  Almost every other woman I start talking to finally reveals that they are married, and I’m not going down that road again if I can help it.

I’m going to have to start getting ready to Initiate Sapphire Skye.  She has worked hard and deserves it.  She is still behind on the reading, but there will be plenty of time for the reading afterwards.  Got to get help for the ritual, and so forth.

I got another email from the Serenity people… seems they haven’t thought very hard about someone with my physical condition, and have to refer the idea to their doctors.  They said it might take several days to get back to me…  LOL that’s what they get for saying their product is totally harmless.

Larry talked me down $100 on the price of my old car, but still $400 isn’t bad.  I hope he comes up with the money soon, it would do wonders for my bank account.

Guess this is more of a ramble than the past two blogs.  Hope you learned something about me.  If you want to know something, just ask.


Time to talk to myself again…  Well, my therapist cancelled my appointment, second time in 2 weeks.  He called in sick this time, last time was an emergency at the office.  Seems like I’m going to have to wait to talk to him about my plans to discontinue my medication in favor of Serenity.

One of my Personal Ads got a response from an English woman living in Myrtle Beach SC, as though I needed an excuse to go to the beach!  Could be interesting!  I’m still talking with Amanda (in AL) and keeping my options open.  It is very hard for me to live without companionship, and I’ve been doing it most of the five years I’ve been living in Asheville.

I had to go to the Emergency Room at St Joseph’s Hospital a few hours ago.  Managed to spray some Super Glue into my right eye.  I did everything right (except for spraying it in my eye in the first place) and seem to be ok for now.  They gave me an antibiotic ointment, mostly for the ointment.

I’m going to my first local AARP meeting in a few hours.  Hope to have enough caffeine in my system to be able to cope.  Two nights out of three with no sleep, this is a record.  My therapist believes it is a sign of mania, but I’ve been mostly depressed lately.  I’m trying to pay as little as possible attention to the ongoing investigation into the space shuttle Columbia, so I can keep my mind off of it.

Last night was our monthly Pagans’ Night Out at Jack of the Wood Pub.  I got there late, and just had a few glasses of Diet Coke.  I would have liked a beer or two, but just didn’t feel up to it.  We had a smaller than usual crowd.  It was good seeing everyone.

I guess that’s it for today.  Maybe I’ll write more later on, like after the meeting.  Blessings on you all!

Hi everyone!  Welcome to my mind!  I have wanted to do a blog for a long time, but didn’t know where to go to start one… I found this site by looking around Yahoo! Profiles of people who come into chatrooms I frequent.

Besides all my many activities, I am on Disability for Bipolar Disorder (and run the YahooGroup, ALT-Therapies4bipolar).  I’m going to see my therapist on Wednesday, and am going to ask about going on a non-prescription version of lithium called Serenity.

I also manage an almost dead YahooGroup called ShemayasTarotTalk, and am a member of several other Groups, including CyberCronesandSages, AppalachianPaganAlliance, NCPagans, and a few others.

If you have any comments, please email me.